There was this time when I walked aimlessly and you were there, really sure of your steps. You knew your choice. You just set yourself free from the toxic tie. While I was prisoned by my own feeling, you ran free like a strong lioness. You finally allowed yourself to fly, went back to be the perfect self that you were.
There was this time when you cheered me up during our long walk in the woods by the river. We sang like no one watching (we hopped no one was). We sang on how God would always be with us, no matter where we were. Our walk included sipping upon my favorite coffee though you hated coffee. While I enjoyed my large cup, you struggled to finish your small one.
There was this time when you took a picture of me and insisted me to smile genuinely. It was really hard but you encouraged me anyway. I had never seen you so happy, so flirtatious, so alive. You were so beautiful. Well, you were always beautiful for me but at that time you were exceptionally so. Maybe it was your bright aura compared to my dark one. Psst... you know what? You were the reason I smiled that day.
There was this time when we talked over a glass of wine. You said you wanted to try one, but I ended finished up yours because you hated the taste. You said it was too sour. I remembered your expression when you first tried it. You frowned but quickly changed your demeanour, too proud to admit your obvious dislike. You’re supposed to be elegant, you know.
There was this time when I left you waiting in my favorite coffee shop. You accompanied me when I needed it the most. You were with me on the day I broke my heart severely. You were with me when I prepared myself to let him go, to see his face for the last time. You were with me when life forced me to give my heart away or the only love I ever had, for now. You waited for me patiently, while I faced the cruel reality and said my last goodbye to him.
There was this time when I sat before you, silently being numb. I said no word, shed no tear but had an extremely shocked heart. You sat there, letting me process it all while always made sure to make your presence known. You were simply being there. No demands. It was really comforting.
There was this time when I sat before you, silently being numb. I said no word, shed no tear but had an extremely shocked heart. You sat there, letting me process it all while always made sure to make your presence known. You were simply being there. No demands. It was really comforting.
There was this time when you held me tight when I fell apart. I could barely feel a thing. I thought I would be destroyed forever. I thought I would never see the beauty in the sorrow God put me in. Yet, you were there, sent to be with me. You made the right decision to stay longer because God knew we need each other. Usually, it was me you leaned on. I was always be the strong one. But those days, you were my crutch. My life. My laugh. My smile. Yeah, I hated my life at that time, I despised my laugh and ejected my smile. But you, you accepted it all for me.
There was this time when I had to let you go at the airport. We had our funniest time through our limited 14 days. We discovered each other more than my 25 years and your 28 years. I wished I changed your flight plan and extended your stay, but we both knew I needed to fix myself on my own so I could grow stronger. I needed a good cry and you knew I would never be able to cry in front of you. I was too proud. My dignity was just too cruel, even for my own good. Hence, I finally sent you away, memorizing your back while you proceeded through DTW.
I wish I could make you stay that day.
I wish we could make you stay today.
But I wish for your happiness more.
That was the only reason I could let it go.
To let you go… but still missing you. The old you. The new you. Whoever you are now.
Forever.
